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Dalida “Helwa Ya Balady”

Posted in Music with tags , , , , on July 3, 2014 by thecountessshadow

Dalida, her very name brings a lot of beautiful memories though She died few years after I was born, but She meant a lot to me (and to many others all around the world too). She was a sensitive artist, a singer with a charming voice and flooding emotions, She was an actress who played a lot of memorable roles, but that is not the important thing about her. The real difference about Dalida is the fact that she was a true multi-cultural artist, a one that Egyptians think of as an Egyptian, and the french thinks of as a french because she was an Egyptian as much as she was a French and Italian. She was not just a pretender giving pale speeches about tolerance, but in her heart, all cultures melted to give a magnificent image that was very clear in her music and songs. Her loving heart could not tolerate the toughness of life and she gave up at last, and though this may seem sick of my side to say that I find her suicide romantic, I have to be honest enough to say this is exactly how I feel. Of course I love this artist and I would have been happier if she was still with us giving us joy with her art, and definitely her death (or the death of any other person) is not a happy event or a romantic one, but since it happened, I am just saying the way I feel about it! May be I am sick yes, but I feel like her suicide, the way she chose to end her life beside her life has made an icon out of her! Anyway, this is one of her songs that is pronounced in arabic “Helwa ya balady” and it means “my beautiful homeland”. I found myself remembering it today and I wanted to share it with you.



Her Wild Stallion


The wild dance!

Posted in Music with tags , , , , on June 19, 2014 by thecountessshadow


She: It is like a music of the body, calling for the body to dance and let its secrets out. I will dance and you will be disbelieving that

you are witnessing this magnificent dance.


He:  The darkness, the flaming orange red dim light, like fire, the music, this sort of music induces a very primitive desire inside me

it makes it glow, a desire you know!


Her Wild Stallion



Not about Ishtar, just about me!!

Posted in Music with tags , , , , on March 17, 2013 by thecountessshadow

One of the special things about music is its unique ability to awaken buried memories or emotions, feelings we pretend that they are dead, but actually they are down there deeply buried, waiting for the right moment to wake up!

This is a french song I love ( though I don’t know french!). It tells the story of a little girl that was taken to concentration camps during world war 2.  It is a very beautiful and touching song, but  actually the first thing that caught my attention to listen to the song a very long time ago was as usual, a very weird thing! It was the word “Ishtar”! I did not know whether it was the name of a place where the song was sung, or the name of a singer, but it did not matter to me because the word had a great deal of energy that added to the beauty of the music. For those who are not familiar with the word, Ishtar is a Babylonian Goddess. She was the successor of the Sumerian Goddess Innana, and believed by many to be the origin and the root of the Greek and Roman Goddesses Venus and Aphrodite. Ishtar was thought to be the personification of the planet Venus by Her ancient worshipers, the planet that appeared to them by sunrise and sunset and captured their minds, so they created 2 personas for Her, a morning persona that was worshiped as the Goddess of war, and a night persona was worshiped as the Goddess of love, sex and fertility.  So appealing was Ishtar just like Her myth. So contradictory and holistic She was, symbolizing extreme beauty, fertility, cruelty, compassion, and power. ( I guess you can easily understand what did catch my attention!)  Anyway, I don’t want to talk about gods of ancient cultures now. I will certainly write about Ishtar one day, as I would enjoy it very much, but not tonight, so let’s just say, I was addicted to that song for a while then I forgot about it.

Today, I came by that song in youtube by a mere coincidence, and I listened to it  to find it awakening very unexpected memories and emotions, ones that are somehow recent and are not related in any way or form to that song. I spent a while trying to understand the link between the memories and the song to find nothing, until I realized that may be I am looking in the wrong direction.  I wondered if all the passion and longing that suddenly exploded inside me were for Ishtar?! actually I mean for what Ishtar symbolizes inside me?  Actually I stopped myself from thinking any further, as sometimes we ask the question, but we don’t really want to know the answer for it, may be we even want to run away from the answer, but I find myself asking again, is it Ishtar that I really miss?!

Why do people ask questions that they don’t want to hear their answer?? May be we just give ourselves the delight of asking, or possibly the question makes us feel closer (even if it is a delusion) to what we love but can not pursue! As if by asking repeatedly, we are digging to keep the meaning deep inside, so if we can not speak it up, we make sure it stays inside forever.

I am trying to find any meaning for this post to make it worth posting! To fake any artificial discussion about anything within it as who cares to read a post in which I am just talking about myself! But actually I can not do it, I am just talking about myself, I wanted to talk, I needed to say what I have said.